They blocked friendster here in our computer lab.. haha. :)
Monthly Archive for February, 2004
I was supposed to do some readings for theo reporting later… but here I am… blogging. Haha. Responsible student, I am.
I won’t be going to katips today… pero tambay kami kina Eins tonight! Woohooo!! Sana kumpleto ulit… Tis hard to get people together esp. nowadays when hell’s with us… toxic.
I think I’ll read all that 7 pages for theo now… haha. Later, bloggy.
My gay theo prof is killing me! I can’t find a single reading about society… society in general. Nakakainis na yung p*nyetang bading na panot na yun!!! Grrr… ang lawak kase ng topic nya e… sana hindi nya matandaan… sana madaan ko ulit siya sa ngiti (yuck) tulad nung dati… kahit kadiri. I can’t believe I’m that desperate to pass my last theo subject…
There I was, sitting quietly on the edge of the door… waiting for those people inside to finish their “e-class”. I looked through the glass window on the door, and saw these students doing friendster. I bet their prof is doing the same thing. Haha. Talk about fire spreading quickly on a cornfield… friendster being the fire and us, the corn… suffering.
230pm. The class finally ended. “Yeah. It’s my turn on the PCs!!!”, I thought. Then, out of nowhere, three of the people I’ll soon begin to hate moved in front of me… peeking through the door windows… They were literally all over the door… “at least fall in line a$$holes!!!!” They were the first ones to get in.. and I’ll love to see them die in my hands… hahah.
I hate line cutters. And I hate my economics prof who’s just too law-abiding. School Policy this, School Policy that… he wants me to secure a special midterm exam permit… when the period was over two weeks ago! And my grade isn’t going to be anywhere in the midterm records… waah! I hate him! That chinoy-Ernie Baron-look-alike-good-for-nothing-businessman-turned-teacher! Arrrggghh!!
…of course, you knew I was kidding… with the kill-the-line-cutters part. :-|
My life’s like basketball. Clicheish, huh?
…I did my HW on VB… confidently finished a short quiz… asked my theo prof to give me something to report on… (i spoke too soon, though. its due on friday)… asked for something to do to make-up for a missed quiz (got to do a paper on society… pucca, ang lawak nun dude..)… all in just two days of school. My college life needs a miracle… much like my lovelife (or what’s left of it).
Last night was hell for me… I had one of those chronic “seizures” again… and I’m always blaming it on myself… if not somebody else. I thought I could deal with this using that mantra on my mind: “I’m all grown-up now!”.. repeating it everytime… This is just too much for me to handle… I can’t believe I’m doing this to myself… something has to be done… I haven’t moved on… fully. Know how the mind is willing but the heart isn’t? My heart nor my mind isn’t… I just want her back!!! I just want a second chance!!!! IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK????!!!! Damn. Why must everything go down on me all at the same f*cking time??!! If she only knew what the hell this is doing to me… I know I can’t get it this way… I mean, what’s holding her back?!? Pride? It’s hard to face the reality that she has moved on… and I haven’t. Don’t think it’s unfair?
I can’t help but be mushy. From the usual NU107, I find my fingers wandering pointlessly to stations… looking for a song for me. I could almost hear that song:
“its too far for me to hold, to far away
…I guess I’ll let it go..”
This is an inside job.. somebody from a high place must’ve done this to me… to call my attention. Too bad HE’s not getting it anytime soon.
Sometimes the people you least expect to leave you hanging would be the ones who’d tie the rope for you. Damn.
Thoughts